Monday, May 4, 2026

Manhood Test

 -the idea of a manhood test. Like I ran from the all dark figure that came through my bedroom wall in the dark with a silent electric chainsaw in 1990

-later it was used for symbols not to worry about things and not to run away

-shaped like the comic stand

-I saw behind the curtain / cutting

-so maybe because I stood up and kept buying comics

-despite a lot of threats from celebrities and comics workers

-I got these

-I later saw it differently and went back to not buying comics

-the COMIC STAND

-I get the idea stars plan to bring me down by

-if I keep buying COMICS

-someone damaging my bike when I am further from home. When I struggle to walk / STAND

-COMIC STAND / SCORPION STAND

-CURTAIN / CURTAINS for BRITAIN because of CORONATION Street

-US COMPANY STAND INSTEAD FOUNDERS / FINDER

Multiverse

 -maybe how the Multiverse is arranged

-maybe two main versions

-at least two main versions created by me

-the night in the Psych Ward I suddenly pictured two images at the same time

-the almost original super hero costume. Fawn. Loose fit. Black boots to knees. And coming down from the neck at the front a black upside down bullet design

-the two black boots and black bullet really all look the same

-like in my arrangement of the Multiverse I originally had

-Multiverses in groups of three

-like Bums my miracles set off by me repeating the line Bop Bup Bup

-and I pictured the super hero power to create things out of Crystal

-the other Multiverse. The design I came up with from going in to Hospital for constipation 

-Crystal / Constipation 

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-my Grandmother said my mother Christine Ager tattooed 'CA' on her hand in Sewing because she was bored

-I regretted trying to twist God and Jesus Christ in to really lying, hypocritical, comical figures

-recently while I was trying not to buy comics

-I built up a large collection of Board Games through Trade Me

-Trade Me

-Bored / Board

-I bought about 30 and found out I had a number of them already

-when I thought I had thrown them away

-my mother maybe saying she is just playing GAMES with me

-when I clicked the two times with 'the Destroyer'. One represented Batman and the other represented Superman

-maybe when I chose to try to twist God and Jesus Christ around

-it stopped each of them from winding up like Darth Vader

-the STAR log magazine and Hedgehog SPIKES for one

-the parallel time maybe about that same time in the year

-my Grandfather said GOOD / FOOD

-like the Light and Dark Sides of the Force

-like the comic Games I am going to order

-maybe it says people are just playing Games with me

-Games / Gate-my Grandfather each time outside my home

-Gate Pa / like warning me not to bike to close stores at Gate Pa

-the Starlog magazine / buying comics and the Food / my bike damaged and me struggling to get home. The two ways the stars might plan to bring me down

-God and Jesus Christ maybe the two Darth Vaders / STAR WARS

-the two There Shall come a Titan comics

-the STAR log magazine and Hedgehog spikes at one Gate

-the GOOD Food and bird / Skywalker at the other gate

-the Red Tornado robot Toy Figure, LEGION logo and The Omega Men / Vega comic I all saw on a trip to close city ROTORUA

-MAX WELL Drive with me naked in a slide

-at the borders of Rotorua at A HOT WATER Hole. The local man like Superman. A woman said I hope they're not going to go naked

-Anakin Skywalker / Darth Vader falls in to a volcanic pit

-in a secondhand bookstore about 1984. I bought a Star Wars Annual which back then said he becomes Darth Vader falling in to a volcanic pit battling Obi Wan-Kenobi years before it said it in films. The store was strange. Above a store. A secondhand bookstore and off a partly separate room other things

-the two times in my sleep with 'the DESTROYER / DARTH VADER'. I realized one represented Batman and the other represented Superman. Like God and Jesus meant to have about the best character

-my Grandfather saying stay away from buying The New Titans GAMES book. Like warned by the man at my Grandparents' front door GATE who might be the Anti-Christ

-like taking the Bus to the next town Mount Maunganui in 2017. Years later I took the Bus to that town and Shopping Centre Bayfair

-to pick up an order of a collection of 15 Roald Dahl books. I had ordered from bookstore Whitcoulls

-ROALD DAHL as in they are the REAL DEAL how I suspected them

-WHITCOULLS I made the RIGHT CALL. And shaped both God and Jesus Christ. In to people who hate some people, part idiots, treat some badly, wouldn't help some they especially don't like, comical reflections of each other, with tempers and often enjoying ruining lives

-WHIT as in WHIZ Comics 2 the first appearance of Captain Marvel

-I was with my mother too at that Bayfair where I years later got the books. Like my mother years later when visiting brought down some Women's magazines. One with the HOME and AWAY story as in STAR WARS

-my mother at Bayfair first told me she thought my father was IAN and he lived in HASTINGS. As in ANAKIN and ANAKIN Skywalker who becomes Darth Vader

-that important moment. Like she was saying the truth about God and Jesus Christ. She told me 'who I was'. Like saying what they are like and what they become

-meeting my mother at BAY FAIR

-like her saying I don't need to worry about a Mills REEF series

-in 1981 in School Grant Elliot said to a girl named Judith Habgood the closest likeness to me

-Judith wants to be one of the girls

-maybe my mother saying I will never again have a real partner, friends or family contact

-BAYFAIR / AFFAIR

-Judith wants to be one of the girls

-that made me remember a very long time ago seeing a boy to me then maybe slightly looking like me downtown and running around downtown and asking him to be friends with me

-the list of affairs and offspring

-the friends etc I had at High School

-Steven Chambers / Chambers. Paul Longley / Lonely Long Leg

-Stephen Richardson / Which Son. Brent Legatt / Leg

-David Eaton / Divide. Kerry Lockheart / Locked Heart

-Anthony Hayes / Hay (partnered to me)

-Paul Cameron / Parent Pregnant (partnered to me)

-all set up in likeness pairs. And many in close Streets to their best friend

-Steven Chambers and Paul Longley living in my Road. Paul Cameron looking like Gar Logan. The villains of the line

-the comic company line making comics like Archie after a channel for their comics. Seeing in their make up Christianity and my miracles

-and the idea I tried I caused 1 Googolplex issues of the characters created but not by creators sent to almost everywhere by minds

-Judith wants to be one of the girls

-the Cruise Ship I was on in 1983. I saw a couple twice he looked just like Charles she looked just like Diana but with a full beard

-I was getting in an elevator with them. He had on a pink sleeveless top with on the front multiple colored rods. I got out instead of going up with them. She said Are you sure or Are you all right

-the key point about 1992. Downtown on a table in front of a bookstore a magazine with a photo of actor / singer / underwear model Mark Wahlberg on stage in shorts with fictional leg hairs. Long, black and far spaced

-a couple of blocks away was Baycourt Theatre. Where the year of the Cruise I went to the opening because Charles and Diana were opening it. I without asking reached out and shook Charles's hand. He maybe rightly said nothing. I went with another student Phillip Hocking / Fill Up Fucking who looked like a hippo or the two similar Moomins large stuffed toys I once had

-on that same sales table that time a comic from what was once called INDEPENDENT comics. Not usually meant for sale in New Zealand except like mostly in the US in comic stores

-Judith just wants to be one of the girls

-me as a super hero split in space

-Daredevil- ('Matt Murdock') drawn by power to walk and appear where I want

-Captain Marvel style- costume like songs like Mark Wahlberg style

-He-Man costume- looking like Rob Liefeld. Doing incredibly powerful miracles

-white 'sarong' style costume- looking like Kyle Lowder. Doing incredibly powerful miracles

-this might wind up the correct list of any affairs or offspring

-the line Judith wants to be one of the girls normally wouldn't mean anything

-but the parallels of how the comic line is set up

-the friends all in partners maybe saying I get no partners etc

-HASTINGS as in HAS STINGS

-IAN of HASTINGS as in INHERITANCE

-Bayfair by OWENS Place as in OWING

-and I think near HEWLETTS Road. Except for the FEW I LET off

-Budget Advice staff. My last Support Home. My Lawyers firm

-and maybe my mother puts scorpion like sores on the feet of all Hospital, Health or Police Staff locally or where they send me

-I was walking years ago down the Road to Fraser Cove Shopping Centre

-at the top of the hill my one foot seemed to go in a one foot step dip

-that might have set it up

-across the Road was once SUNRISE Trust a Support Home I was once with

-as in SCORPION SORES

-I once had a dream I was back there in my / the next room. There was like a strange large green pear shaped bean bag shaped object in there

-like the CHRISTIAN SPIRE Comics logo

-like the Winnie the Pooh set of Building Blocks large jar like a Honey Pot I brought inside from a shed that day. Shaped like a Pot of Gold

-the SKELETON I saw of a man lying in a ditch in fields. As in SCORPION SORES. Having to lie down or still when dead

-I thought maybe I heard children's laughter from up on the sides of that hill but it was far off. Maybe my mother laughing at them

-the time recently Fire Alarms were ringing in my home and a Fire Engine came around

-while my home was renovated Electricians needed to redo the lights. The Alarms were caused by a couple too close to the walls

-one was a friend I once had STEPHEN RICHARDSON

-STEPHEN / SCORPIONS / STEPS

-RICHARDSON / WHICH

-the FIRE incident like to maybe say this is right. And these people go to pain when they die

View Finder

-when I was very young my mother bought me a Toy Disney Camera

-not a View Master

-shaped like a Motion Picture Filming Camera. With a handle you turn on it's side to move the cartoon tapes. Like early Motion Picture Camera

-it came with two rectangular box shaped tapes

-Mickey's Trailer- about Mickey, Donald and Goofy in a runaway Trailer

-Mickey's / miracles

-Trailer / my home where my miracles once came from 

-runaway / I went in March 2017 to the next town and the bottom of a small mountain and got incredibly powerful miracles

-and 101 Dalmatians

-at the end the two main dogs are looking through a Church window one on each side of the window at their owners getting married

-side by side / like personality and appearance of Christian / Church

-side by side / like the first letter of each super hero power was the same as the first letters of once special themed rooms of my home

-then the final shot. It won't have looked like this

-but it partly looked like a white Tombstone with darkness behind it

-and on it the initials of my name Matthew Ager in reverse (AM)

-reverse / as in Anti-Christ

-a Tombstone / like I died

-the initials in reverse / like I was reborn different

Sunday, May 3, 2026

Matthew Ager

-years ago I had two dreams

-in one former DC Comics Head Jenette Kahn was lying in a Hospital bed in a small room

-there were several people around her

-a news item read she had died with friends and family around her

-in the other dream I was lying on a Hospital bed

-in a sort of slightly large Hospital maybe Operating Room

-I was going to have my penis operated on

-I was concerned I would not go to sleep properly

-she died. I die now

-she was surrounded by loved ones. I have the list of super hero powers I wanted

-the first letters of each power the same as the first letters of once special themed rooms of my home

-I was having my penis operated on

-I get the appearance and maybe too personality I saw in the man Christian 'Paredes'

-Paredes / Parent

-after I willed these to happen to me I realized it was like me dying and being reborn / penis again

-in both dreams I was in Hospital

-the idea I had I was taken to Hospital for then a few weeks

-the idea I was being set up and sorted out maybe to be the Anti-Christ

-this is like saying I had operations and the appearance and super hero powers were in me

-I came home for several weeks after the three in Hospital

-so I started and wound up in Hospital

-and with me willing to die etc

-my lists of miracles went out

-and maybe I can no longer do miracles


Fact or Fiction

-today I tried splintering time

-so people and places cross over for now

-like in DC Comics Crisis on Infinite Earths

-I was after thinking of the cube shaped hut my Grandfather made for me

-with see through plastic sheets as surfaces

-I thought of the TV series I liked when young The Time Tunnel

-an actor on it James Darren who played Tony Newman

-not meaning that I once about 1978 asked my Grandmother What's an idol

-she replied somehow knowing is James Darren your idol

-which he wasn't

-like someone saying time wasn't crossing over

-I once saw a sketch my Grandmother made of Superman

-it was only small

-him flying flat with his arms coming out in front of him

-it looked really well done

-like someone saying in a way Superman was your idol when young

-maybe that means there was no truth ever to DC Comics

-or maybe there is no truth to any Earth story

-meaning no truth like they were created on real situations  

-the comment about an IDOL- almost all living get the power of God

-the picture drawn of SUPERMAN- almost all get the super hero powers of Superman

Friday, May 1, 2026

The King of Terror

 -Revelations calls the Anti-Christ 'The King of Terror'

-the night I went to Hospital

-like forces were setting me up to be the Anti-Christ

-I had got FECES over the walls of three rooms in my home

-TERRA meaning ground

-looking like feces

-that night I might have completely ended Jesus Christ

-saving him from always suffering. From a Days of our Lives series about me he is the villain. And being made to be just like Darth Vader

-or I might have got this phase wrong it maybe too means

-King of TERROR

-King of MAUAO

-the day in 2017 I took the Bus to the next town to the base of the hill Mauao

and my really powerful miracles began

Hard Copy

-my Grandmother said my mother CHRISTINE tattooed her initials 'CA' on her hand in Sewing because she was bored -CHRISTINE / SCORPIO...